Past, Present, Plans

It has been a busy week. Work hard, play hard, climb high, fall far. I've been taught by numerous sources that as a person, my job is to serve. I am to serve God by serving in the way that he wishes. Today I am going to throw out some thoughts regarding the present, what is happening now. This is a kind of homework break, sorry if syntax, phrasing, etc. is horrible, more of a brainstorm than anything here--

Now, all the fourth dimensional, us being stuck in a linear perception of time-- all of that business I am not so sharp on. I am throwing out thoughts from my narrow linear perception of time; perhaps someone with a greater understanding teach me to see beyond this.

The past, is it dynamic? In retrospect we can interpret the past differently than we perceived it when it was once our present. When asking people, "What is the importance of keeping a journal?" or "Why do we study history?", a common quick response is "to learn from the mistakes of the past". Do we bend our perceptions of the past in such a way to create lessons for the present? I probably unintentionally do sometimes. What is the value of the past, except for our present? It can even be argued that the importance of a beautiful memory of the past is only to be able to enjoy it now, at least that memory, in the present.

And the future. The "present"s (so many pun opportunities here I will pass up) that we will try to define for ourselves.

The present is our reality, the past contributing to part of the reality, the future, the realities to come, of which speculating about influences our current reality.

Waiting does not need to be passive. The future is something ahead of us, but decisions in the moment's reality will change (from my ignorant linear perspective) that which is to occur. The past, as far as I am concerned for myself, is something for me to interpret to make a better present. I am not saying to lie to oneself.

More of a brainstorm than anything, I posted this largely as a break from work, and because I feel I should put more stuff like this on my blog rather than just abbreviated day-to-day happenings.

My job now and forever will be to serve. My present now is doing homework to gain the marginal satisfaction of having fulfilled responsibility and thus serving my role well as a student and son. My present job also means being the best friend I can be. How else should I serve right now?

What a nebulous way to present a mess of thoughts. Anyways, back to work for me. :D

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Notable things of today:
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Banana for breakfast, it was aPEELing. School: Socratic Seminar in English on The Awakening (Kate Chopin), a book which I did not like so much. Some people I know compared me to Robert. Is that a bad thing? Does it matter if it is a bad thing? Statistics. Bryant makes it really obvious I'm playing Danel in Shogi. I emerge victorious to my surprise. Biology. Tricks are for kids. And Mr. Hu. To test if we were listening he has a sign on the door that says (go to room 217) when in reality we are supposed to go the computer lab in the 300 wing. Supposedly Ms. Hammer yells at people. Poor Eugene :( Econ fourth period. I get very upset with myself because I forgot key details and concepts regarding elasticity. Spanish class is 5th period. We are reading a short story, "Espuma y Nada Mas" (Tellez). Perhaps I ought to find some food and bring it to that class. The people that sit around me are very nice. I am really moved by initiative, for example when people greet me or ask me something first. Red Cross meeting at lunch. I did not expect pizza! At the last blood drive, I was unable to donate because I used the ALEKS machine at the previous blood drive. I should be able to donate in the coming March drive though. I told Joyce and other leadership people I would be happy to help make posters and such for the club-- they gave me pizza, and all I have done is donated blood once and gone to a few meetings. I gave Shelley a ride to the market, and then home. Afterward I went to Jesse's house. Pak family bough ta lot of drinks today: water, iced tea, etc. Played some Xiangqi and won, played some Tatsunoko vs Capcom and lost. Very grateful for dinner provided, Boston Market. That Macaroni and cheese-- so good! Minnie actually laughed at a few of my jokes and that made me really happy. Mocha made some mess that Jesse had to clean up, so I posted on Mocha's facebook wall. Jesse and I went to Target to get Alvin's friend Left 4 Dead 2, then we went to Barnes and Nobles. Kevin Lee, we lost. After coming home I rode the exercise bike for 25 minutes while listening to kpop and did some pushups. I don't know if you would want me to mention your name, but I told you I would pray for you and I did. Korean nationalism for 김연아 and the Olympics continues to amuse me. Not enough time to play Bryant a shogi game, although I'd like a good duel. I hope I made at least somebody's day better. Back to homework. Being excited to go to sleep is not a bad feeling.