Thursday, February 25, 2010

Past, Present, Plans

It has been a busy week. Work hard, play hard, climb high, fall far. I've been taught by numerous sources that as a person, my job is to serve. I am to serve God by serving in the way that he wishes. Today I am going to throw out some thoughts regarding the present, what is happening now. This is a kind of homework break, sorry if syntax, phrasing, etc. is horrible, more of a brainstorm than anything here--

Now, all the fourth dimensional, us being stuck in a linear perception of time-- all of that business I am not so sharp on. I am throwing out thoughts from my narrow linear perception of time; perhaps someone with a greater understanding teach me to see beyond this.

The past, is it dynamic? In retrospect we can interpret the past differently than we perceived it when it was once our present. When asking people, "What is the importance of keeping a journal?" or "Why do we study history?", a common quick response is "to learn from the mistakes of the past". Do we bend our perceptions of the past in such a way to create lessons for the present? I probably unintentionally do sometimes. What is the value of the past, except for our present? It can even be argued that the importance of a beautiful memory of the past is only to be able to enjoy it now, at least that memory, in the present.

And the future. The "present"s (so many pun opportunities here I will pass up) that we will try to define for ourselves.

The present is our reality, the past contributing to part of the reality, the future, the realities to come, of which speculating about influences our current reality.

Waiting does not need to be passive. The future is something ahead of us, but decisions in the moment's reality will change (from my ignorant linear perspective) that which is to occur. The past, as far as I am concerned for myself, is something for me to interpret to make a better present. I am not saying to lie to oneself.

More of a brainstorm than anything, I posted this largely as a break from work, and because I feel I should put more stuff like this on my blog rather than just abbreviated day-to-day happenings.

My job now and forever will be to serve. My present now is doing homework to gain the marginal satisfaction of having fulfilled responsibility and thus serving my role well as a student and son. My present job also means being the best friend I can be. How else should I serve right now?

What a nebulous way to present a mess of thoughts. Anyways, back to work for me. :D

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Notable things of today:
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Banana for breakfast, it was aPEELing. School: Socratic Seminar in English on The Awakening (Kate Chopin), a book which I did not like so much. Some people I know compared me to Robert. Is that a bad thing? Does it matter if it is a bad thing? Statistics. Bryant makes it really obvious I'm playing Danel in Shogi. I emerge victorious to my surprise. Biology. Tricks are for kids. And Mr. Hu. To test if we were listening he has a sign on the door that says (go to room 217) when in reality we are supposed to go the computer lab in the 300 wing. Supposedly Ms. Hammer yells at people. Poor Eugene :( Econ fourth period. I get very upset with myself because I forgot key details and concepts regarding elasticity. Spanish class is 5th period. We are reading a short story, "Espuma y Nada Mas" (Tellez). Perhaps I ought to find some food and bring it to that class. The people that sit around me are very nice. I am really moved by initiative, for example when people greet me or ask me something first. Red Cross meeting at lunch. I did not expect pizza! At the last blood drive, I was unable to donate because I used the ALEKS machine at the previous blood drive. I should be able to donate in the coming March drive though. I told Joyce and other leadership people I would be happy to help make posters and such for the club-- they gave me pizza, and all I have done is donated blood once and gone to a few meetings. I gave Shelley a ride to the market, and then home. Afterward I went to Jesse's house. Pak family bough ta lot of drinks today: water, iced tea, etc. Played some Xiangqi and won, played some Tatsunoko vs Capcom and lost. Very grateful for dinner provided, Boston Market. That Macaroni and cheese-- so good! Minnie actually laughed at a few of my jokes and that made me really happy. Mocha made some mess that Jesse had to clean up, so I posted on Mocha's facebook wall. Jesse and I went to Target to get Alvin's friend Left 4 Dead 2, then we went to Barnes and Nobles. Kevin Lee, we lost. After coming home I rode the exercise bike for 25 minutes while listening to kpop and did some pushups. I don't know if you would want me to mention your name, but I told you I would pray for you and I did. Korean nationalism for 김연아 and the Olympics continues to amuse me. Not enough time to play Bryant a shogi game, although I'd like a good duel. I hope I made at least somebody's day better. Back to homework. Being excited to go to sleep is not a bad feeling.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Xiangqi, Chess, and making Pokémon Real

There are occasions in real life in which we are permitted to compete. In the United States, we have a fairly free economic system that allows competition. We all know that we are allowed to compete in school (except that TUSD doesn't do rankings!). Sports are another obvious choice.

I think it is safe to say that many people are fascinated by competition, and in particular duels. Take for example the great popularity of Pokémon and other anime shows. We see lots of individuals battling. Now wouldn't it be cool if we could all be Pokémon masters? As a child, back in the day of the original 150, I greatly enjoyed Pokémon. I also enjoyed playing Chess.

Chess/Xiangqi/Shogi etc. offers a safe ground to duel. Nearly everyone I have met knows how to play Western Chess. Nearly all Chinese people I know are familiar with Xiangqi or can play once reminded of a couple of things. Young/Old, Male/Female, I would say that a fairly fair (pun?) battle ground is offered.

Xiangqi in particular has done a lot for me lately. This Saturday I had the pleasure of playing Ye Ye at Xiangqi (won one, lost one). On Friday, I lost to Christine Ma (NOOOO!). I've lost multiple times to master William Chiu. If it weren't for changed seats in Biology, I'd be playing some good games with Andrew Kao this week. Jeff Wei knows he is doomed when I have a plan. Whatever the case, Xiangqi is socially connecting tool as well as an intellectually stimulating hobby.

It is unfortunate that we cannot have Pokémon duels. Other games such as Starcraft and Call of Duty or whatever people are playing nowadays (Starcraft is kind of old, but people still play :D ) will give distinct advantages to players with better equipment or more hours invested. I still think that good, old fashioned chess (and variants) offers a delightful duel alternative to other more physical options.




A Study in Danelism

This morning, we are going to discuss "Danelism", the study of the nebulous status messages of Dan(i)el Dumett.

http://lifestream.aim.com/stream/fibonachi1337

Past Statuses:
- Algae in a Bottle
- Danel
- Forgive Me
- Winter Well
- Badge Beating Fist

Recent Statuses:
02/07: pail
02/07: Tolling Bell
02/08: Nothing New under the Sun
02/08: pail
02/08: Nothing New under the Sun
02/09: pail
02/09: Nothing New under the Sun
02/09: pail
02/09: Nothing New under the Sun
02/10: All Consuming Gratitude
02/10: Graceful Fire
02/10: Double-Edged Fire
02/10: Double-Edged Fire, for al our sakes LET IT BURN
02/10: Polo
02/10: Double-Edged Fire, for al our sakes LET IT BURN
02/10: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane
02/11: Polo
02/11: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane
02/11: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace
02/11: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains
02/12: only a little gone
02/12: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains
02/12: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame
02/13: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain
02/14: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance
02/14: only a little gone
02/14: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance
02/15: only a little gone
02/15: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance
02/16: only a little gone
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance
02/17:Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written
02/17: only a little gone
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten
02/18: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | When I Dreamt of Light
02/19: only a little gone
02/19: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | When I Dreamt of Light
02/19: only a little gone
02/20: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | is Agape
02/21: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | A Phoenix's Test

Patterns, Observations, etc. :

Jimmy Luo and myself pride ourselves as the leading (and only?) Danelologists. Here are some of my own observations regarding the nebulous status messages and riddles of Danel Dumett.

Danel revealed to me "Algae in a bottle" is a metaphor for himself. He later evolved it into some meaning of the "Algae becoming a tree". Danel statuses are most always universally applicable, though relate most directly to Danel's own life. An example of this is the status "Danel", in which the "i" is omitted (Dan(i)el).

Midway through typing this I noticed a recurring "only a little gone". I think that I could have omitted this status, as it may simply be a "brb" message for the rest of us, only said in a bit more Danel manner.

Danel foreshadowed to me that he already had a series of statuses planned and that it was just a matter of time for us observers to see them unfold. We will examine a motif of fire, and try to predict where things are going.
02/10: Graceful Fire
02/10: Double-Edged Fire
02/10: Double-Edged Fire, for all our sakes LET IT BURN
02/10: Double-Edged Flame, for all our sakes LET IT BURN
02/11: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane
02/11: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace
02/11: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains
02/12: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame
02/13: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain
02/14: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written
02/17: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten
02/18: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | When I Dreamt of Light
02/20: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | is Agape
02/21: Double-Edged Flame | Justified Hurricane | Sun's Embrace | Ash Remains | The Dancing Lame | A Home for Pain | Subterranean Radiance | Testament and Deliverance | Most Selfish Thing Ever Written | Right Smitten | A Phoenix's Test


Now Danel revealed to me himself that flames do not have edges.
We see "Ash Remains" and "A Phoenix's Test" following statuses referring to burning and the sun. Is Danel to imply he did a sort of dying and is now to do a sort of attempting to be reborn? We shall see.

Throughout all these statuses are ideas concerning the value of self/the individual. Things to think about... I wonder where this will go.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

More catching up, (or falling behind more slowly)

Today:
I went to EFCI in the morning. I woke up at 9 (beat waking up at 10 and missing church cleanup yesterday D: ) and was a bit rushed, but made it on time. The sermon was on a passage in Acts and problems associated with a growing church. The divide between the Greek and Hebraic Jews was well related to EFCI specifically because of the different generations of Asian people, me belonging to the ABC's. In Sunday School we discussed John Ch. 5, in particular the story about the paralyzed man that Jesus healed that was criticized for "working" on the Sabbath when he carried that mat he used to lie on. I asked a question regarding when man's law is to be respected, the specific example used being teachers and the illegality of discussion of personal beliefs and religion. Interesting things to think about...
This weekend I was blessed with plenty of nap time which has made me rejuvenated and happy-objective :D instead the bipolar-artist-like mood that consumed much of last week. I was reading the Psychology text book (even though I'm not in psychology) and Wikipedia regarding sleep earlier this week. Quite intriguing. Perhaps it is hindsight bias or confirmation bias, or one of those other biases that the book discusses, but I really think I have been underestimating the power of sleep this Senior year. Junior year with zero period I actually managed to pull of more sleep (at the cost of less social life). Anyways, I'm beginning to see how more sleep leads to more efficiency and better performance overall, so more sleep may lead to more time by allowing work to be completed faster.

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Catching Up!

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Week: November 30 - December 6
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On Tuesday I took my driving test at Laguna hills and passed. How delightful! Afterward Mom took me to Jack in the Box and I let her drive. After practicing with my permit for a while, I hadn't been driven for a while, so it was great fun to not have to do the driving myself. Throughout Junior Year, I didn't have that much inspiration to get a drivers license. Then I saw Ryan She and his car under that bee hive, and Jeff Wei's heroic rescue. And I thought to myself-- I am a Senior and I don't even have a car. If my bike was under a bee hive it would suck. Also, not being allowed to ride my bike in the dark was getting a bit annoying. Now that I have a license I can do things like eat fried rice at diamond jamboree (I could earlier but it was a far bike) and go to Barnes and Nobles until 11 PM closing time :D

Friday was the Lip Sync show at school, with an excellent performance by our very own Dan(i)el Dumett and Arnob Mallick. Some drama I won't mention for privacy's sake occurred afterward involving some close friends (all I will say is bitter bitter brownies), but aside from that it was a delightful night. I didn't know Glara was performing so it was fun to see her :) and Vision of Hope club, of which many friends of mine are in, did a great job and had some creative glowing goodness at the opening. I also remember on this day that before the performance, Kevin, Jesse, and I were in the park of Northpark speculating the larger questions of life. I felt like I had vague answers from Christianity to questions such as "why do we exist?" but nevertheless always an important and interesting topic worth discussing.

Matt payed a short visit on Saturday.

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Week: December 7 - 13
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Socially this week was quite active. On Tuesday I went to Rubios with Vince. That drink machine does not cease to amuse me. Today (02/21) I went to Rubios as well. On Thursday I went to Barnes and Nobles and studied Bio and such with Sunjay. On Saturday, I worked on the song project for Government with Shelley and Dan(i)el.

Perhaps the most dramatic event that happened this week was asking Joanne to Winter Formal. In Biology with Kimchi Ramen... I was a nervous person. I had decided the night before to ask her, so only like one or two people saw it coming. She definitely didn't. I got a "yes" thankfully. :) I hope I made her happy, and at least I added some entertainment to Bio.

I went to EFCI on Sunday.

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Week: December 14 - 20
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Pleasant surprise on Tuedsay, saw Rafe at Pat and Oscars. It think I mentioned this earlier. It is strange because a second time I saw him again at Pat and Oscars. What a swell place!

Senior late start breakfast was on Wednesday. I like free food. I don't think I know anyone that doesn't.

On Friday I went to one of Jolene's concerts to hear her play flute. I really enjoyed the performance, but as always (at least from my experience) the performer was more critical of herself than those watching.

Sunday I went to Thomas Ngo's Birthday party. Props to Thomas for having such a fun party :D First we watched Avatar at the district, and enjoyed awkward scenes of blue people with tales making love and riding flying lizard things. Then we went to Chae Bahn in Diamond Jamboree. I was far too amused watching a vegetarian in a Korean restaurant. Afterward we went to Thomas' house and watched District 9. I really liked District 9- as far as intensity goes it was... well pretty intense. Had many major themes and things to think about in addition to being very well done. It seems there was a theme of alien rights going on that day.